Who do you trust?

In this current phase of my life I have been gifted with the time to do what is amounting to an urban mini Vision Quest. I have been given a chance for my old self to die letting go of the past life patterns which have not served me. Patterns which have kept me from realizing who I truly am. Patterns which held my family back from discovering and becoming who they really are. Patterns which have not let us all understand our life path and all the possibilities open to us.

Yes my patterns effected my family's lives and held them in check.

I knew something was wrong but was blinded to the truth, I didn't want to listen when my wife tried to help me. So I questioned....

I have questioned others to no avail....my Wife, friends, priests, counselors, anyone but it wasn't until now, in this time that I asked the only person who could answer my questions: myself.

I realize there has been an underlying issue within me stemming from a childhood event, and re-enforced many times throughout my life which blocked me. It is an issue I had to come to terms with before I could move forward in anyway.

Being apart from my wife and children these past few weeks has given me a lot of time to contemplate my past and recognize how it, and my choices have formed the present. I have discovered much about me....and have discovered there is still much to be discovered and worked on.

But to date, I have learned, is that I am finally open to listening....which in turn helps opens up the channels of communication vital in a healthy, loving relationship with your spouse/significant other and your children. As well as the rest of the world!!!!

Logically I understood this, emotionally I was not mature enough yet to put it into practice which dammed the channels and caused a stagnation of emotional, spiritual, emotional energies.

Truthfully, it has taken time and energy, much Reiki and countless hours of EFT (check out our blog Intentional Wellness at: http://intendwellness.blogspot.com/  for more information about these fantastic tools)

And I realize now why.

For me it has come down to one super important interior need:

TRUST

For reasons I won't go into right now, I lost trust in myself. I didn't trust my instincts, my decisions, my likes, my dislikes....me.

I didn't trust me. And it follows that I have always found it hard to trust anyone else, even my Wife whom I cherish, nor my children. I had to trust me first, and in so doing let go of my need for control. Don't get me wrong, I am still wrestling with this, I am human after all but it was a huge first step to changing....but so far, it has been mind opening.

So, who do you trust? Do YOU trust YOU?

I'll talk more about trust soon.

Safe Journeys,
Amagi

Hello....

This is my attempt to document my journey to find my path....I have many questions, I all ways have. So far I am still looking. Will I ever find the answers that will satisfy my thirst for understanding and knowledge? I'm not sure....but I hope so.

I'm not sure if I will share everything about this journey and why it has come to the forefront in life right now or not....but I will share my thoughts and some of the tools I use to try to discern what needs to be changed and what I find, if anything.

There is much confusion in me right now....I hope for clarity.